Psalms 32:8 "I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go."
Psalms 46:10 "... be still, and know (recognize and understand) that I am God."
Romans 13:11 "... the hour has come for you to wake up from your slumber, ..."

Those are the three verses that God put into my head yesterday when I was feeling a little down. I was troubled because I felt very disaccociated from God and I didn't know what to do or where to go to feel like a normal human being again.
The conflict I've been feeling is this "Should I go out and do everything I can to get the kind of job I want, or should I relax and let God guide me to the place He wants me to be."
I said "Lord, teach me in the way I should go."
He said "Be still, and know that I am God."
I closed my eyes and tried to clear my head of all the stuff I've been thinking about lately, I even fell half asleep. When I opened my eyes they fell on my open Bible and I read "...The hour has come for you to wake up from your slumber..."
That just answered my question. What do you do when you wake up? You get up and do something!

So that's what I'm going through right now.

Alot of stuff has changed for me in the last 5-6 months. There are still a lot of things that I'm lacking acoording to worldly views, but I feel as if I've grown three-fold spiritually. I am really starting to realize how much God provides in ways you don't even think about. I mean, jeez, I have 3 times as much money in the bank as I ever did when I had that job. I havn't even recieved the supplemental check from the goverment yet.

I've been thinking about becoming a teacher again. I mean like going to school while I'm out of work and getting a degree. I worry that my serious nature and sharp tongue will permenantly damage som poor child, but I'm learning how to 'not be like my dad.' I would have to continue to trust God to provide not only for my car, phone, gym (don't ask), gas, groceries, yadda, yadda, yadda, but also for my school books and tuition. Maybe I can find a grant or 'work while you learn' program.

Another verse that popped out at me...
Romans 12: 1 "Therefore, I urge you brothers, in view of God's mercy to offer up your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God."
Bleh, that means I have to start exercising, and like it! Haha!